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Ozzy Osbourne – Where is he now?

I always find it fascinating when a celebrity dies, maybe that’s not the right word. I don’t find their death fascinating I find the world at large fascinating and how everyone reacts to it. The news media, social media, and documentaries start popping up. Suddenly, this person is usually portrayed as such a humanitarian. Which, maybe they were. I don’t know them. As a matter of fact none of us really know them.

Sadly, Ozzy Osbourne passed away. I don’t say that lightly. I am sure his family and friends are all mourning his loss. I am also sure that many beloved fans are mourning his loss as well. You can truly connect with someone through music. It can feel as if they have spoken into your life. So please don’t misunderstand. Do not think that I am speaking of Ozzy Osbourne’s death flippantly. I am not speaking flippantly of anyone’s death for that matter.

What goes through my mind when such a public figure dies is, “Where are they now?” Obviously, Mr. Osbourne I’ll call him because I don’t feel we are on a first name basis, was a very wealthy man. I know he didn’t start out that way. He grew up in poverty and struggled from the very beginning. It seems he came from a loving home. Without his Dad’s gift of a PA system, we might not know who Mr. Osbourne was. He in fact was very successful. I know it was still a hard road. I don’t pretend to know or minimize all the man went through in a short sentence. I also know he struggled with his own addictions. I certainly can relate as I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. So we have traveled the same roads.

What I mean is, there is a very real Heaven and there is a very real Hell. You don’t have to believe in them. That doesn’t make them any more real or make believe. You will go to one of them. I certainly don’t know where Mr. Osbourne is. I am not God. I don’t know his heart. I Googled last night looking for articles where he talked about his faith and there were a few. In one interview he said, “I’m a Christian. I was christened as a Christian. I used to go to Sunday school.”(The Guardian) He stated, “I believe in God. I don’t go to Church, but I don’t think you have to go to church to believe in god.” (Men’s Journal) He also stated he believed in a higher power. He prayed before every show. He also prayed a blessing upon his audience at the end of every show. He states very specifically, “I am not into satanism. I am not a devil-worshiper. I have never been involved in black magic at all.” (1989 Interview) I think these statements are impressive. I can support each one of them. I’m a little iffy on the higher power. As long as he’s talking about God the Father and believing in his son Jesus Christ. A higher power can mean different things to different people. It also looks as if Mr. Osbourne was a very kind and generous man. Raising millions and millions of dollars for charities around the world.

I don’t know if Mr. Osbourne was involved in the Occult or super creepy things. I know that was the persona that he put out. He even says his stage presence was very different than how he was off stage. We have all read the crazy things about him. The bat or the bird, whatever it was, and I think a lot of that was for shock value. I’m sure some of it was because he was high or drunk out of his mind. What I do know is that simply professing to be a Christian won’t get you into Heaven. Neither will being christened. Even saying a prayer isn’t enough. I also know that being involved in the Occult and being a drug addict or alcoholic even biting the head off of a chicken won’t keep you out of Heaven. There’s only one way in. You may only get to The Father through the Son. If you believe and put your faith in Jesus Christ, you affirm that he was crucified. You acknowledge he died for your sins. You believe he rose three days later. You accept that he has ascended into Heaven. He has paid your way!!! What good news!!! So you see there is nothing we can do, we can’t be good enough or earn it. We are saved by Faith through his Grace. We can’t lose our salvation. You can’t go out and do something bad or say something bad and have to worry, oh No! I’m out. God doesn’t like me anymore. Even when we lose our way, he just stands there waiting. He waits with open arms like the good, good Father he is. He is waiting for us to comfort us and love us. He will guide us to where he knows our lives are best lived out.

I know Mr. Osbourne was given a personalized bible not long before his passing by Dylan Novak. It is reported to have made quite an impact on him. He is said to have insisted on taking it to his hotel room. Later, he would keep it on his bedside table. I don’t judge this larger than life man we have all come to know as Ozzy Osbourne. I am not standing in judgment of his life or of his heart. I pray he is walking with the Lord as we speak. I hope he accepted Jesus Christ somewhere in his journey on this earth. I wish to meet him in Heaven one day.

Pruning for Growth

What an amazing weekend! I had the privilege of attending the Women’s Bloom Conference at Mechanicsville Christian Center and hearing Kelly Minter speak. It was as if the conference was made just for me. God knows what you need and when you need it. There were around 500 women at the conference. I’m sure if you had half an ear open, you couldn’t help but hear God speak through her message.

Kelly spoke confirmation to the journey I’m on and staying on that journey. The big question, What does it mean to bear fruit in our lives? How do we bear that fruit? That’s me, I’m a tree that has been unattended and overgrown for so long. I have needed pruning. I have had an apple here or there and I have remained a tree. I know the master gardener loves me. Still, I’m afraid that if I let him prune me, it will hurt. I also worry that I won’t like the finished product. The other trees around me like me just fine. What if they don’t want to be around me after he’s pruned me? He might cut away the things that I think make me who I am.

When my Dad died something in my life changed. I needed Jesus. I finally had to face the truth. My way doesn’t work. Happiness is fleeting, joy is something totally different and it comes from the inside and can only come from Jesus. When I let Jesus have all the parts of me I was holding on to he began to prune. Yes, it was painful and uncomfortable. Those things happen when you let your old self die and begin to live and really follow Jesus. Some of the other trees don’t really like this pruned and shaped up tree. I’m OK with that. 50 years. It’s taken 50 years to feel this kind of joy. This is the best I have ever felt in my whole 50 years.

Don’t get me wrong. I still have my migraines, depression can creep in some days. Life isn’t perfect. I’m sure God will keep pruning me until he’s ready for me to come home. Who knows what hardships I will face before then. Ultimately God has got me. I am not in control. Of anything. He’s got this. I have to put my trust in that fact. God’s got this.

A couple VERSE’S from this weekend. – You did not choose me, but I chose you. I appointed you to go and produce fruit and that your fruit should remain, so that whatever you ask the father in my name, he will give you. – John 15:16 – He chose us. He appointed us. He wants us to produce fruit, and he wants our fruit to be long lasting. The father wants to answer our prayers. – I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit. Apart from me he can do nothing. John 15:5 – To bear bountiful fruit we must remain connected to the vine. We must remain connected to life. That vine, that life is Jesus.

I am just excited for life. I am excited for things to come. I am excited that drinking and drug use is not clouding my mind. I am alive and energized and can’t wait to see what he puts in front of me. You too can have that excitement and energy. Jesus loves you no matter where you’ve been or the choices you’ve made in the past. If you would like to know more about Jesus, send me a message. If you are curious about my testimony, feel free to ask. I’ll be happy to share. Till next time, watch a panda video, it will make you laugh!

Finding Peace in Pain

This past weekend came to a halt when I woke up with such severe nausea I could not move. I deal with chronic pain and look completely fine from the outside. It has been hard for me to express my pain to others. This includes both physical and mental pain. I wish it were visible to others, like a broken leg or black eye. It would certainly make it easier to explain and talk about.

For those that have never dealt with depression or chronic pain, it can be extremely hard to understand. It’s difficult to wrap your head around something you can’t see. Everyone has an opinion or advice on what you can do to get better. You’re depressed, you should get up and take a walk. You need a hobby or have you tried to talking to a therapist? You have, well maybe they aren’t the right therapist, you need to find a new one. Those migraines you have been having would go away if you change your diet. Essential oils have helped so many people, I bet they will help you as well. If you exercise more your migraines will decrease. Have you tried this medication or that medication? It’s not that the concern is not appreciated. However, it’s not quite as simple as popping a couple Advil or thinking good thoughts.

Do you want to know what has worked the best? Trusting in the Lord. It has taken me years to get to this point. It was so freeing once I finally did. I am still doing everything on my end with my Dr.’s to lessen the number of migraines I get and countless other issues I struggle with. But they are just temporary. I prayed throughout these last three days for healing. I have prayed for understanding. I have most of all prayed for God’s peace. The difference in trusting God with all that I am going through is that I have nothing to fear. God will bring me through to the other side. Whatever is on the other side is for the glory of God. It is also for the good of those who love him. It may not be what I have planned but who am I to know what’s good for me. Isn’t my Father in Heaven, the creator of all heaven and earth, isn’t he a better judge of what’s best for me? I’m sure of it. God showed me that even through sickness I can be content and peaceful. He gave me such peace that I have never felt before. “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7

So I say to anyone suffering with chronic illnesses. If you’re dealing with mental health issues or any illness, please know that God sees you. It’s not easy dealing with these issues but you don’t have to struggle alone. I know that one day I will be healed and all pain will be gone from my body. You too can have that same guarantee if you believe in Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior. That he died on the cross for your sins and mine and rose again on the third day. Our time on earth is so short compared to eternity. My weekend was so much more bearable because I chose to have God by my side. You can do the same.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

Journey Through Grace: Finding Clarity After Loss

It’s been over a year since I have posted a blog. I didn’t realize so much time had gone by. God has been impressing on me to make this a regular part of my week. I am attempting to do that. I have changed the name of the blog to Journey Through Grace. That’s exactly what these last five years have been. My life has been a journey through grace since God decided that my Dad’s time on earth was finished.

When my Dad passed away it was devastating. Just devastating for myself and my whole family. He was our glue. He led this crazy group of nuts. We all went to him when we needed clarity. Let me say we were nuts by our own doing, my Dad wasn’t the head nut, only occasionally. But there in lies the problem. I will speak for myself although I know others in my family feel the same. When I needed clarity or needed answers my Dad was my go to. He truly was the wisest man I’ve ever known. He was able talk on topics from farming to electricity. He could shoe a horse and build a boat. He may have not had an actual degree, but the man was a bible scholar.

It was not necessarily wrong to seek advice from my Dad. But I neglected to seek clarity and answers from my Heavenly Father. My Dad always pointed me to scripture and showed me what scripture had to say about certain issues. He was always talking to me about reading the word and my relationship with Christ. I don’t think I felt it necessary to deepen my relationship with Christ. I have my Dad. He has all the answers, what more do I need.

I was left spinning when he passed. He passed so suddenly too. Diagnosed with a glioblastoma and gone 3 months later. That’s not very fair God. Thanks for the time to get myself together. My Dad had completed his journey. I know my Dad heard God say those amazing words, well done my good and faithful servant. Now all I was left with was God and of course the world. Needless to say, these five years have been incredible. They have been painful and joyful. They’ve also been depressing and blessed. I could use every adjective in the dictionary because my emotions and my experiences have run the gamut.

My Dad was a great man and he loved the Lord with all his heart. The one thing he did was show me an example of my Heavenly Father and that’s who I ran to. I’ve known God practically all my life. However, I never had a relationship with my Lord, Jesus Christ until the last several years. I now understand the joy my Dad had when he spoke of Jesus. I am busting at the seams for others around me to understand that Jesus. Life is not perfect. It never will be. However, it is a whole lot better when you can truly talk to your savior and you can let all your ugly just hang on out.

I’m excited to share my experiences of the last five years and just talk about every day things. Things going on in the world. Things going on in my life. But I’m most excited to talk about Jesus.

Love and Truth

Something I struggle with is how to share the truth of the gospel all while being loving at the same time. It’s not something I have always done well. Often times love and truth are pitted against each other. As if you can’t have both, you can only pick one. If you tell someone the truth of the Word you have to compromise love. If you are loving well then you have to compromise being truthful. When in all actuality love and truth go hand in hand. God is love and God is truth.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that who ever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16 NIV) This is probably one of the most well known scriptures in the world and I have read it and seen it hundreds of times. Not until recently did I begin to understand it. In order to know God it requires more than a Sunday visit. It’s daily studying and mediation in his word. The greek word for so is (outos), which means thus or in this manner or like this. The verse doesn’t mean so, God loved the world. It means, in this manner God loved the world. God loved the world like this. How does he love the world? By giving the world his one and only son. What happens after that? Whoever believes in him will have eternal life. That is whoever believes in him will not only accept that truth but will live out that truth. God has just shown us love and truth in a single act. The giving of his Son, Jesus Christ. Love and truth are not opposing each other. If you believe in Jesus you believe in love. If you accept Jesus you are dedicated to his truth.

Jesus does not condemn. That is satan’s job. We are required to be transformed, to pick up our cross daily. That means dying to yourself. Not physically, but to our own selfish desires, to do the will of God. We are called to be in this world, not of it. So if that means making a sacrifice to a fleshly desire daily, that is what we must do.

Being a Christian is not easy and in this culture it gets harder every day. We will never win anyone to Christ by hammering a person over the head with truth and not showing any love. On the other hand we can love someone right into hell by not ever speaking truth. We must be in our bibles daily, spend time in prayer and have a good church community. God will show us how to “Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is Christ.” (Ephesians 4:15)